SAINT BERNARD SAYS...

there is no need for the devil to tempt those who ignore obedience and permit themselves to be guided by their own light and deterred by their fears, for they act the devil's part towards themselves.
Here is a sad story of willful disobedience and the tragic consequences. He is young and I pray that he realizes that what he is doing is not in the best interests of the Church. Obedience is sometimes difficult, but if you take vows to so something you should indeed be obedient to those vows. It's a matter of character, faith and maturity.